divingaggie, for months and months after my dad passed away I never thought the pain of missing him would ease or go away. Two and a half years later I find myself missing him every day but it has gotten easier and I hope it will for you, too. Sometimes, I see him in my dreams--I wake up feeling as though we had the chance to visit, get a hug--I love that. I'm sorry for the pain you feel and hope you find moments of comfort.

AnnMarie--I haven't had a dream yet, but I look forward to it. I miss everything about her, even the stuff that used to annoy me. I guess one of the saddest things that I realized yesterday is that no matter what, nobody in this whole world (except God, of course) will ever love me as much as my mom did. DH and DS do love me lots, I know, but it's just a different love that a parent has for a child.

Hi LoveItaly and Jorr,
We'd like to think my dad's learned his lesson, but to be honest, he's being deprived of his favorite foods, so poor thing. BUT...he knows he should not be eating such things anymore because he suffers. In fact, when I fill out his medical records, I say he's "allergic to shellfish - causes onset of gout". I know it makes no medical sense, but better than the dr giving him dyes that could cause gout.

And we're not the only affected persons. He's gotta think of my dog too! He's her ultimate playmate!

Poor Jorr, what a scary reaction to have towards anything, especially a supplement!

Mikemoe - congrats on your DIL's restaurant. I will definitely check it out in the coming weeks!

DivingAggie - my condolences to you on the loss of your mother. My heart goes out to you.

mc--Thank you...as for your dad, it must really be hard for him, though. My best friend loves shrimp, and she has never had problems with it. But in the last year, she developed allergies to it, and she says it is so much harder than she ever thought! Good luck to you and your dad!

annmarie--just to let you know, I had my first dream last night about my mom, and it was such a good thing. It's exactly what I needed.

divingaggie, that's wonderful!! I am really happy for you. And btw, it was a sad and tough realization for me, too, when I realized after my dad passed that no one loved me or cared so much about my life as he did. I am forever grateful that I was there for him at the end of his life as he was there for me at the beginning of mine.

divingaggie,

My heart is with you. My young and vital 64 year old mom passed away in November from pancreatic cancer. Losing her has been the most painful and difficult thing I have ever had to go through. I still miss her at every moment, but the warm, happy memories are more frequent now than the immediate sadness surrounding her death. It feels like I will never stop missing her, but it is getting easier...today is 4 months since she died.

I know what you mean about nothing being like a parent's love for a child (as both a parent and a child).

Just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you - your post touched me. Wishing you strength and healing.

fun4all4--Thank you. Your mother was also quite young. Mine was about to turn 62. One thing about cancer, though, is that at least we all had a chance to love on them and show them how much they meant to us. It was horrible that they suffered, but at least they were able to say all their good-bye's.