| Just |
Jan 24th, 2003 04:31 PM |
I am getting older now but I remember... I remember trying to show I wasn't afraid, I remember feeling like I wasn't coming back, I remember being scared of the unknown, I remember my family crying... I remember the long flight, I remember thinking I was gonna be a hero, I remember thinking it wasn't gonna be worth it, I remember thinking it was gonna be worth it... I remember being there but I don't know where, I remember the heavy rains, I remember everthing was hot, I remember the pounding shells shaking my bed, I remember being more afraid than I have ever been, I remember thinking I am only 19 lord-please don't let me die, I'm remember trying to sleep and someone wanted to kill me, I remember nothing prepared me for this... I remember gunfire barely missing my body, I remember the poor, nasty children in the mud, I remember not to pick them up they may blow up, I remember bodies tearing up, I remember smells I can't explain, I remember faces I'll never see... I remember feeling guilty about going back home,I remember being treated bad, I remember having nightmares every night, I remember getting hooked on Valium, I remember exchanging it for alcohol, I remember aa meetings, I remember failing at jobs... I remember too many things, I remember too little things, I remember I was once young, happy and worry free... War changed that in 13 months for me forever... Remember that protests don't really do any good, remember the ones who are really scared about war... The ones who are fighting it.
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